This project began as a complementary piece to the "Not Without My Father" series. All teenagers feel uncomfortable in their own skin. As a gay teenager growing up in suburbia I had those issues compounded with growing into my sexuality. Young boys are programmed with ideals and activities they must strive for. Through self-portraiture and still lives, I explore and re-evaluate them as an adult. While my sexuality is an undertone through out many of the pieces, the work speaks more broadly to the quirks of boyhood and the role of self-portraiture as a recreation device.